A Scar, Revisited

There is a scar
It is upon my heart...

Once upon a time...
My heart was broken,
My world was shattered,
My life was forever changed...

The wound was deep...
The pain was raw...
The tears were many...

The healing was treacherous...
A process I am still undergoing...
The area is still tender...

From time to time I feel it...
I see what now remains...
It reminds me of what is past...
It shows me I am not the same...

The scar is not ugly...
Its appearance I can bear...
The wound has now transformed into...
Something beautiful...

It is good to visit my scar...
It is good to remember my pain...
It is good to know where I've come from...
It helps me to see I can heal...

Underneath that scar...
Lies hidden...
The healing that is still taking place...
For always I will miss you...

Grief does not end...
But the sting of death...
Over time...
Begins to fades...

Why?

Answers?
I have none.
Questions?
I have many?

Why?
This question looms...
Is there ever an answer that would make any sense or make us feel better about the loss?

The hardest part of life, is death.
We all will die someday...
Some sooner than others...

For those left behind,
We struggle and try to grasp why...
When the one who has passed is young, or kind, or amazing, or giving, or all those things combined and so much more...
We are left with a huge void of understanding...
We just can't make any sense of it...
Their death seems so senseless and pointless...

Unfair...
That is what we cry out from the depths of our souls...
This only brings us back to the beginning:
WHY???

I don't know why...
I may never know fully why...
So what can I do???
I can
TRUST...
in the One who created life...
"The LORD gives and the LORD takes away"...
I can
BELIEVE...
That He is GOOD!
And no matter what:
He LOVES me!

So, answers I have not, but what I do have...
HOPE.......